Grief. This is such a hard process to go through. There’s no right or wrong way to experience grief. There’s also no time frame. When you lose someone close to you, every day seems like something is missing.
You can fill the void by staying busy, but the tinge of pain is still felt. When friends and family leave, you’re left to deal with the loss. Most of the time, we think we are alone in our pain. We are not. There’s so many options like therapy , but one free option is to call someone to talk to that will never share the things you’ve said.
That’s where Hope4Healing Ministries comes in. We have a support group on our Facebookpage, and we have a counselor to talk to at any time.
If you’re going through grief of any kind and need to talk, we are here for you.
This is so close to my heart that I had to share. I hope you take the time to read this. https://knowablemagazine.org/article/mind/2021/unseen-scars-childhood-trauma
The end of this first blog and this part of my Rona and Healing Testimony❤️ Hope you have been encouraged and pointed to Jesus and His LOVE and Healing❤️
Corona has literally been my basket in the Nile River!!! It has helped provide a safe, comfortable, place for me to heal, rest, and recuperate from this health condition, the events of late 2018-2019, and even wounds from years before that. It has been like God’s rehab hospital for me to help continue to rebuild my faith in Him and make sure that the delicate trust that was already there after so much brokenness wasn’t torn down, but continued to be built on and strengthened. The touch of love from a few friends and ESPECIALLY the care and touch of Jesus and His LOVE that I have received from my Angel caregiver, has been like the medication in my IV bag, nurturing my heart and replenishing it with LOVE and Tenderness it DESPERATELY needs. My caregiver has been like my main nurse, watching carefully over me, treating me with Tenderness, and pouring large amounts of God’s LOVE into my heart repeatedly. She has watched over my basket making sure I was safe and has nurtured me with God’s LOVE as Moses’ mother nursed him with milk, providing a safe, comfortable place for him to grow, pouring in all that he needed to grow healthy and strong, replenishing what he had lost while he was alone, stranded in the Nile, letting him feel and know he was LOVED!!!!!!!!!!! Both by God and those around him!!!!! She has done exactly that for me and I couldn’t be more grateful!!!!!! I like to say that God has a Heart Infirmary. Unfortunately, I have been there way more than I prefer. I have been there so often, there is a bed there with my name on it. I know where to go and am quite familiar with it This latest time has been my longest stay there and never have I received as much nourishment there as I have this time. I feel more nourished and LOVED than ever before. Am I still healing? Yes. Do I still need to receive nourishment from Him and others He uses on a continual basis? YES!!!!!!!!!!! Will this be my last time in His Heart Infirmary? Sadly No. As of now though, I am nourished more than I’ve ever been before and I know more than I ever did before how desperately and continuously I need that nourishment both from Him and others He uses. I am not the same as I was before. My life isn’t the same as it was before. Prayerfully my heart and life will not go back to the way they were before, but continue to be stronger in general, and to always seek out, have, and receive the nourishment I need to thrive!!!!!!!!!!❤️
I was able to recuperate and did better during the first few months of quarantine. In June, things started to worsen again and I was switched to another new medication. That medication quit working completely in August and I made a final decision to sign the papers for a partial hysterectomy. I was able to have the surgery just a couple of weeks later on September 3rd at Baptist Women’s Hospital. I couldn’t have asked God for more perfect care that day!!! The doctors and nurses never left my side and made me feel as comfortable and ready as possible. They made me feel comfortable enough to ask any questions I needed to and informed, reassured, and were with me every step of the way!!!!! The recovery process was annoying, tiring, and moderately painful, but not as hard as I expected it to be. I enjoyed resting, listening to music, watching tv shows, and getting a few visits, gifts, and deliveries from friends.
So with that, as you can imagine, I was quite excited when the shut down began. Scared, but also excited and thankful. I rested and enjoyed simple things like extra family time, being at home, and spending time with my PRECIOUS caregiver whose presence is such a blessing!!!!! I was very happy to not have to push myself and use too much energy doing all the things I would’ve hated to miss out on, and the epic opportunity to still participate in things through the internet was a HUGE plus and something for which I was extremely thankful!!!! I have been able to participate in so many life giving things this year, several of which I may have had to miss out on completely if it wasn’t for doing things “Corona Style” Drive by birthday parties, Drive by/Driveway Baby Showers, and cyber Gender Reveals and weddings, have been Heaven sent, and in a lot of ways, I felt as if they were a gift from God just for me so that I would be able to participate as fully as possible.
In the months before the shut down, I had repeatedly spoken about stepping back and taking a break from even what would seem like the simplest things like going to church… Yup that’s right. I was talking about needing a break from going to church… Little did we know the HUGE break we would very soon have!
I’ll spare all the details of the Forced Sabbaths I had before Corona and will save those for another day. Fast forward to 2019. 2019 was one of the craziest, if not the craziest year I’ve been through so far in my life. My Aunt went to Heaven on New Years Day and several weeks before that had been spent traveling and being with her as much as we could while she was on her way there. I was also going through a caregiver transition at that time and had many different people coming in and out of my house who I was trying my best to meet them all and tell them my physical needs. Thankfully, God moved and answered much prayer in giving me a caregiver who has literally been an Angel to me and I couldn’t be more thankful! I then began to notice that something was going on with my health and ended up having an ultrasound that revealed I had uterine fibroids. We had no idea how bad this condition would get throughout the year and into 2020 as medication wouldn’t work for very long at all to treat it. That year was spent traveling to and from my grandparents’ house visiting and checking with them since my aunt had lived with them her entire life on Earth and was now in Heaven. While dealing with this and other family loss and issues, I continued to battle my health condition. With a busy schedule, healing emotional wounds, and a body that had become anemic, I entered 2020 physically and emotionally exhausted. I was afraid of doing anything I usually did. I didn’t want to do anything. I was horrified of the year and afraid that it would bring a tearing down of the newly rebuilt, yet still super fragile, trust I had in God. I dreaded “normal” and didn’t feel like I could handle it. I was going to force myself to do things I usually did monthly or annually simply because I didn’t want to miss out on anything or let anyone down. I needed the shut down…
“And I will never forget the One who dared to touch me. He could have healed me with a word. But He wanted to do more than heal me. He wanted to honor me, to validate me, to christen me. Imagine that…unworthy of the touch of man, yet worthy of the touch of God.” ~ Max Lucado
This paragraph made me cry. It was at a point in my life when I was going through traumatic healing. I cried, because I longed for that kind of love. I longed for that kind of worthiness. I longed to have that kind of validation. Fast forward to many, many years later and I now have those. I have them because I allowed Jesus to reach into the depths of my soul and heal me. I faced the pain and shame of my past with the help of two therapists who God placed in my life at just the right time.
When you feel like you have lost all hope, cry out to Jesus. He will certainly hear you and heal you. It will not be on your time, but His. Trust me. I wanted to get through the healing process long before God’s timing. I have two therapists who can testify to that, and especially how valuable the waiting process has been for me.
Trust in the Lord, He knows what He is doing in your life.
One of my favorite quotes is from a dear friend of mine. “God is in control of the unknown.” This recently helped me endure the loss of a teenage client to suicide. It will help me as we at Hope4Healing Ministries move forward towards our goal of providing help to those who cannot afford counseling or life-coaching. I hope it helps you get through hard patches in your road as well. Thank you, Ken, for those 6 words that will forever impact my life.
Dr. Trish Strange
Corona is categorized in my brain as a type of circumstance I’ve come to call a Forced Sabbath. A Forced Sabbath is a circumstance that forces you to rest for a small or prolonged amount of time when you wouldn’t otherwise, but God knows you desperately need to. During these times there is almost always some healing that needs to be done either physically, mentally, emotionally, and/or spiritually. You can be aware or unaware of this need at the time. I have had several of these circumstances over the years and have become somewhat used to them and even begun to welcome them. I have discovered it is one of the most common ways God uses to Heal me.